Humility

Today sucked.
I worked fedex and then came straight home on a bike, took a shower, and made a 2.5 hour trip thru snow on bike to staunton to work til 8. It sucked so bad. I'm not sure how I did it.
Gotta do it again tomorrow though. Fortunately the roads aren't half as bad anymore tho.
You know...I got very angry today. Out of the thirty or so trucks that passed me on the road, none of them responded to my "i want a ride" hitchiker's thumb. And of course there's that young driver (there is one every time I ride) who just wants to either get u dirty or pretend he's going to hit you and this guy sprayed me with wet snow from his truck by gunning the engine after he passed me. I was very upset by the time I got to work and I was hating people once again. I know it's a sin but...people suck. Anyhow, of course I was also selfish and feeling sorry for myself and that's a sin too. And so tonight...when I'm so worn down I can hardly see straight...I realized something. God becomse so much more real when you seek Him out of desperation and a humble heart. I have been nothing but humiliated for a while now and I came to God today and after being convicted of crappy language, I realized how foolish I am. How I still have so much compared to some people. Yes, I may not have driving privelages, or lots of money, but I have a beautiful family and I know a merciful God and that's a whole whole lot more than a lot of people can say.
I am humbled. And thankful.