A new day

What a season. So many things gone wrong, so many mistakes and so many different ways to start over. I have come to a place where I feel that God is giving me the opportunity to start over in a lot of different things. He says that His grace is new every morning and I have seen it firsthand even though I never seem to do the right things. I have to step back and just look at the beautiful season that passed right before my eyes into ashes and wonder why I keep losing everything I gain. And then I have to come to the only conclusion that makes any sense: God is bringing me to a place where I have to focus on only Him and rely on Him and not myself in order to live the life He wants me to lead.
My mistakes are far from acceptable but I refuse to be torn down, rather I am gaining strength from knowing I will carry through. I look intensely forward to starting from square one.